The door opened quickly and violently, as if someone was breaking in, but Maddie knew otherwise. Brandon stumbled in, hiccupping as he went, closing the door behind him, fiddling with the keys in his hand before sighing angrily and waving at the door, as if the air would lock it for him. Drunkenly, he turned, swaying heavily, his arms swinging around him like vines around a tree. As their eyes met he stopped, in his drunken state assuming she hadn’t seen him. Her glare was fixed and arms folded. She was wearing what she did every night, a long grey nightie, one she had worn since their wedding, ‘easy access’ she had called it. But now her face wasn’t the same as that night, it was stern and furious with flared nostrils and wide eyes.
“Where have you been?” Maddie demanded, quoting almost every wife whose husband had come home inexplicably drunk.
“Out,” Brandon said quickly, trying his best to hide his slurs.
“Where?” she demanded again. He huffed at her.
“Out,” he repeated. This time, she huffed at him, taking a step closer. Now, Brandon could see the fury in her blue eyes and her withdrawn tongue as she held back her shouts.
“You better have a bloody good reason,” she seething, breathing heavily through her teeth. Brendon huffed at her again, pushing aside her anger clearly written across her face.
“Did you miss me?” he teased, still swaying, his arms dangerously close to the framed pictures on the table beside him. Maddie recoiled slightly, her anger slowly fading into sorrow, tears building in her eyes. She bit her lip and sucked in cool air before looking back at him.
“Yes, I did,” she said. Brandon jolted back slightly at the sincere, contained answer, swinging himself steady again. “Because while you were off galivanting around town with your friends, I was here, tucking our daughter into bed. And as I am doing that, my phone rings. I have to stop saying goodnight to her to answer it. It was from my father…” she hesitated, breathing in sharply again but her eyes never left his. “My mother died.” She finished. Even through his drunken vision, Brendon could see Maddie’s eyes well up again, more tears falling down her face. He brought a hand forward to pull her closer but she stepped back, lightly pushing his hand to the side and he let it fall, confusion spreading across his face. She took in another deep breath. “This is how it’s been since the beginning. You go out, get drunk, come home late and I'm already asleep and I find you passed out on the sofa. Thought it was funny and cute to begin with, but then it got boring and annoying. But then, you stopped, cleaned up your act, but, since last week, you’ve been sneaking out to drink, leaving me alone. And not only that, but alone with your infant daughter.” Once she had finished, Brendon had started to cry, the warm tears gently falling down his face, creating a river as they meandered down where the wrinkles of smiles used to form.
“Maddie, I,” he started.
“No,” she interjected, her voice stern again. “I have lost my mother, your daughter has lost her grandmother, a woman she will never remember. I lost someone and the only person I could talk to was our daughter, who was confused about why I was crying in the first place! I don’t want her Christmas ruined with the memory of her grandmother’s death! And you weren’t here for me, or for her. I don’t feel like I can rely on you anymore.” Brendon opened his mouth but she barged past him, heading for the stairs.
“Maddie, please I’m…” he tried, but she didn’t turn. As she reached the stairs she stopped, her back still to him.
“I'm taking Rachel to my brother’s tomorrow,” she said after a moment, her voice warbled with tears, holding back the urge to run to him. “We can talk more after that.” With no further words, and ignoring Brendon’s wails and desperate calls, Maddie walked up the stairs and to their bedroom, where she didn’t sleep.
Day 1
Closed Eyes
Closed Eyes
Deafening
Deafening
Closed Eyes
Day 15
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Published: October 24th 2020
Deafening
The noise was deafening, its waves creating visible motion in the grass below my window, stretching out over the hills and into the chasm that sat a few hundred feet away. It faded and the grass re-erected itself, a light breeze washing it over to the other side. Gradually, the noise started again, this time coming from the opposite side of the house. I turned and I ran towards it, jumping through the kitchen and to the window. Once again, the grass was folded towards me. Slowly, the noise increased, until it engulfed me. Then, it faded again, leaving me with the silence of the lands around me. The noise had started a few weeks ago and had remained constant. It varied between the times of day, sometimes early in the morning, as if waking me for work, and other times late at night, keeping me awake. This was one of those times.
I hadn’t ventured out to find the source, I didn’t have the courage. Its location seemed to change daily, but for the last few days, it had remained consistent with its placement. The chasm beside my home. I turned away from the window and looked at my chaotic kitchen. It was dark and gloomy. The light had shattered long ago but I couldn’t be bothered to change it, the darkness almost comforting. Takeaway boxes lay strewn on the floor, mould growing from the half-eaten food that stuck out from the boxes. I had become a mess since the noise. I turned back to the window, hoping to maybe catch a glance of something that might justify my restlessness, my worry, my fear. It was as if the sound had opened a deep pit of fear and terror that I had never experienced before. There were no words I could use to describe the sound, it was unlike anything I had ever heard before, but the closest I could get, was Hell.
I heard the noise begin again, this time quieter, teasingly, trying to catch my attention. I turned my head with dread, the hills bordering the chasm slowly leaking into my eyeline. Once I faced the hills, I walked forward to the window and stopped, my eyes scanning the horizon. This time, it felt quieter, the sound no longer piercing, almost soothing. Without the pain, it became a melody. I found myself humming along to it, my foot tapping against the wooden floor and a smile on my face. My eyes were fixed on the hills, but then they started to move. The hills began to bend and contort, raising themselves higher than my house and then crashing back down in front of the window. I gazed in awe at the sight, my foot still tapping, my throat still humming, and my smile still growing. The hills continued to crash beneath the window, but I didn’t notice, my eyes still captivated by the movement of the hills. Then, all of a sudden, the noise stopped and the hills shot back to their usual places. The sudden silence shocked me and I stumbled back, clutching my chest as my heart started to beat faster. In the back of my mind, I could hear a growl. It was slight, slight enough for me to blame the wooden floor I was crouched on, but then it grew, and fear started to set.
My eyes were cast to the floor, dread filling every fibre of my being. I could feel eyes on me, but I couldn’t tell where they were. I kept my head down, safe in the knowledge that the floor beneath me was safe. At that moment, a creek emanated from the floor, and my breathing stopped. Sweat was now coursing down my body, soaking my shirt and making my palms clammy. With wide eyes, I tried to listen for where the sound was coming from. The creeks were slow and precise, although not trying to hide. Each felt methodical, like a lion stalking its prey. The thought of me being prey did not comfort me. I tried to stand, but my legs were jelly, refusing to move from their spot, as if rooted by the grass beneath the foundation. Another creak. I released a shaky breath, suddenly seeing it condense in front of me, despite the warm air. Another creak. They weren’t footsteps, I knew that, so whatever had entered my house, was not human. I moved my eyes to the corner of my vision, trying to see a shadow of whatever was stalking me, only to remember the broken kitchen light. Another creek echoed through my mind, haunting me, teasing me. All of a sudden, there was a rush of creeks and I screamed. I collapsed into a ball and wrapped my arms around my knees, bringing myself into a tight ball, tears now falling down my face. I pressed my knees against my closed eyelids and started to sob, waiting for the cruel hand of death to swipe at me, but no swipe came. I waited, lying there on the floor, tears streaming down my face and gently rocking myself, as if I were in a cot. The creeks had stopped, the rush seemingly leading to nowhere.
I couldn’t tell how long I lay there, it could have been a week, or even a day, but it certainly wasn’t soon. After I released myself from the ball, I was greeted by a dark room. It was night, I thought, so I moved into my kitchen and opened my fridge, scanning the shelves for something to eat. As I sat down that night, trying to drown the memories in alcohol and Chinese takeaway, I forced my mind to focus on the television in front of me. I forced the memories out, forced the sound out, filling the void I was trying to create with whatever I was watching. If I could forget, then I could be spared the memory of the rushing creeks and moving hills, and the noise that only the Devil himself could have created. Then, slowly, it gently rose again. I turned, wide-eyed, and faced the window and saw the same scene. The rolling hills perched on the edge of the chasm, grass pointed at me, and the screaming melody started again.